happy

Welp, I signed my life away today…not really, but I did find a place to live!  I am feeling relieved and a little anxious.  I am definitely excited to live on my own but a little bit bummed that I will be farther from the city than I am now.  I suppose it will be worth having no drama and doing what I want whenever I want 🙂  Plus I will have access to a pool and fitness center 🙂  My lease starts Monday, so I have lots to do this weekend.  As for right now, I am sitting on the deck with a glass of wine enjoying the empty house (my roommates have already left…although my one roommate’s dog is still here which worries me a bit, lol).

While I am glad I found a place to live, I really do wish this would’ve taken place over the summer, the end of the school year is just so crazy!  I know I’ve probably said this a bajillion times, but seriously, I can’t believe my fourth year teaching is almost over!!!  I am so very lucky I love my job and school..and I am truly glad I will be around another year 😉

I am missing my honey like crazy….I haven’t been able to talk to him all day, and am not sure the next time I will, which is such a bummer.  I’m glad we’ve been able to talk a lot lately though, I don’t think I could’ve made it through all this craziness without him or my family.  My parents have been so wonderful through this all…I have called them crying and upset and angry and frustrated and they have been so supportive and helpful and I am even more grateful that they are coming down to help me move.  I told you before, I have THE BEST FAMILY IN THE WORLD!  Again, I am just so blessed to be surrounded by so many loving, incredible people (even if they are miles away).  THANK YOU to my amazing friends, family, and boyfriend!!

ARRRGGHHHH

I promise you, I am not one to get easily stressed out (and even more so, to admit it), but here it is: I AM STRESSED OUT!  Ugh, I am so ready to find a place to live and get out of this situation and be on my own and happy!  April has been a roller coaster ride to say the least.  I keep telling myself that it will all work itself out, but at 10:07pm on the 27th, there’s nothing I can do about any of it!

Anyway, on to other more important things (than having a place to live)….the world lost a wonderful person the other night.  One of my dear friends from college died just the other night, the same age as me.  He had had a heart transplant while we were in college, and apparently was having difficulty breathing.  The doctors thought maybe his body was rejecting the donor heart (after several years), and were running tests.  In the midst of all of this, I guess his heart just gave out.  I was informed of all of this in school, while teaching fifth grade, and about broke down in tears.  He was one of the kindest, most incredible people I know, always cheerful and positive.  My college roommates and I spent a good deal of time with him and he has actually just messaged us a few weeks ago about how much he missed us and what great times he had with us.  It goes to show how undeniably short life can be and how things can happen to change so many lives so quickly.  The outpour of support and love on his facebook wall was almost overwhelming…it was clear that he touched a lot of lives.  My prayers are definitely going out to his family at this time, for not only did they lose Kurt, but they also lost his brother in a car accident a few years ago.  I can only imagine and pray that God has big plans for this family and will give them the strength to get through this together.  I am sure that He is using Kurt in his own special way.

My brain is hurting, so I am off…

One of my favorite pictures from Africa to help me sleep tonight

He is risen!

Happy Easter everyone!  Church this morning was wonderful and each day renews my faith that everything is going to work out just as it is supposed to!  Still searching for housing, though it is now making me more excited than anything to live on my own and decorate and such.  My parents have also offered to come help me move in the beginning of May, so that is a blessing (not only because they are willing to help me move, but also because I love spending time with them!) .  My sister is planning on coming down over the summer sometime so I have lots of excitement coming up!  Life is good 🙂

Feeling cheerful and pink today (my favorite color!!!):

updownupdownupdownupdown….

I have a job!  Wooooohoooooo!  I did get my contract Wednesday so I know for sure I will be employed for the next year in Atlanta.  What a relief!  It is nice knowing I will not be splitting schools or going into something blind.  So that is the good (great!) news, for the not-so-great news, I have nowhere to live!  Yet…  My roommates have decided to move into a two bedroom (long story but I am going to be a lady and say it’s for the best.)  So now, I am in the process of finding a one bedroom so I can live on my own again.  I think that is going to be my best bet and I think I will be happiest this way.  I have been checking out some places online and will be going to look at some soon 🙂  Like I keep saying, everything always works out the way it is supposed to, so even though it is a minor setback right now, it will be for the best eventually.  I just wish it wasn’t during the last month of school!

Which brings me to that—4 more weeks of school!!!  So unreal!  There is a lot of craziness going on with our contracts and post-planning days and such so I am praying that it all gets worked out…even if it means I need to get a FOURTH job, haha.  But seriously.  And, speaking of other jobs, they have been working my butt off at the zoo this weekend!  I enjoy it but I am completely exhausted when I am done!  My goal is to be out of the shower, teeth brushed, and in bed by 9 tonight (earlier would be completely acceptable).

With all this “life” going on, I can’t wait until I am with my honey all the time and can enjoy time with him and enjoy having a place for us.  I love looking at interior design/decorating ideas and seeing all the fun stuff I wanna do one day when I actually STAY somewhere, lol….

tomorrow…tomorrow…?

Hoping tomorrow is a big day for me.  Amazingly, the school board voted Monday to reinstate both art and music full time next year (with some drawbacks such as furlough days), but I can handle the pay cut if I have a job!  As I was telling people today though, I won’t truly, truly believe anything until I see it in paper and can sign on the dotted line.  So tomorrow it is (supposedly)…contracts are to come out tomorrow and if my name is on one, I will be signing IMMEDIATELY before they change their minds on us again!  It has been such a grueling, time-consuming, stressful process and I just want it all to be over with.  I’m sure everyone will be happy to hear me stop complaining (sorry everyone!).

We are finally back on a regular schedule at school now that the testing is over and I am so glad.  The kids have actually seemed to calm down some–I think now that the “big event” is over they can relax and shake some of that anxiety.  They have been quite humorous lately also.  Or maybe I have just noticed it more because my boyfriend was telling me that when he was here he was very entertained by them, so I started to pay more attention to some of their conversations with other students and such….  I think being a teacher I get immune to a lot of it and don’t really notice everything.  I really wish I had a tape recorder with me most days though ’cause some of the things I catch are just priceless!  Not that I am counting down or anything, but 23 more school days with the lil ones until summer break!

Aaaaand just a few more days until I can eat chocolate and buy shoes again!  You never really realize how much temptation there is to do things you aren’t supposed to do until you have made a decision not to do them.  The chocolate thing is driving me crazy with my birthday just passing AND all of this Easter candy floating around.  I have definitely missed it!  While the shoes haven’t been quite as hard as the chocolate, I desperately need a new pair of flip-flops and a pair of black heels I can wear to work (thank you Roxie for destroying both of my favorites!).  I don’t need to go wild and buy 20 pairs, but I would like to splurge a little!

More shoes and fun stuff for today…

Shoes and books, what more could a girl want??

beautiful day in the neighborhood

Spring is definitely here!  Went on a run today and it was GORGEOUS out there!  The trees finally have green leaves, the sun was out and toasty, and the flowers were breathtaking!  I usually go back and forth about which season is my favorite but right now I can say without doubt that I LOVE spring!

I can’t believe I only have 5 more weeks of school this year.  Each year seems to fly by a little faster than the last!  Hopefully the board gets this budget issue figured out so I can figure out what to do with my life…like I said the other day, I am not letting it stress me out anymore.  God has a plan for me somewhere, somehow 🙂

Happy Palm Sunday!

lucky girl

I am so lucky to have such a great family, group of friends, and boyfriend!  My roommates and friends surprised me last night with a birthday dinner which was very thoughtful of them and definitely cheered me up after this week!  I am still undecided about what I am doing with my life in the next year but I have gotten so many inspiring and happy thoughts that I am truly not worrying about it right now.  I know it will all work out how it is supposed to!

That’s all I have for you this morning, I am going to go enjoy my day!

should i stay or should i go now…?

I’m sorry I haven’t posted in awhile, but OH my goodness, what a week it’s been!  I am completely exhausted.  We are doing our Georgia standardized testing this week and I am a proctor in a third grade classroom, which basically means that I “walk around” and make sure people aren’t cheating and are doing the test.  Now, this sounds really simple (and it is) BUT it is sooooo boring and soooo tiring.  I am used to talking, teaching, walking around, painting, drawing, helping, etc all day.  Monitoring 23 children quietly is incredibly brutal.  Then teaching AFTER that to kids who have been sitting quietly for 2 and a half hours…well I am sure you can imagine how that goes.

In addition to that, I got some bummer news this week (on my birthday nonetheless)….my county is going to be cutting the art program in half.  Since I am an art teacher, it will obviously directly affect me.  There is a chance that I could still get a contract for next year teaching art, but at two schools.  Unfortunately it doesn’t guarantee that I will be at the school I am now (I LOVE my school!).  Plus teaching at two schools does NOT sound fun to me at all.  I know for sure my quality of teaching will go down and that I will be much less happy.  I have some other options on the table for what to do with the next year of my life (since after that, my honey and I have decided that we will go wherever he is stationed), which could potentially include looking for jobs closer to where he is stationed now or going back to Ohio for a few months until I know for sure what I am going to do.  I have seriously been making “pro” and “con” lists for each of my ideas and still have no idea what my best bet is.  I am praying my little heart out and know that God will guide me at some point in time…  But being in limbo right now about everything is doing a number on me!  I am just lucky that I have an incredibly understanding boyfriend and family who support me no matter what I do!!

That wonderful boyfriend of mine did send me flowers on my birthday which definitely brightened up my whole week!!  I really don’t know what I would do without him!  Even thousands of miles away, he’s always there for me 🙂

ignore all the crap on my desk, lol

Hopefully these pictures will cheer you up as much as they cheered me up!

Well, as I imagined, this week flew by and I will be back on the road to Atlanta tomorrow.  I had such a great time with family and friends and truly did get to relax some.  I can’t believe that when I go back to school Monday we will only have a few weeks left!  Another year flying by before my eyes.  Hopefully the school system gets this budget junk worked out and I can sign my contract for another year!  While I am looking forward to lots of changes in my future (hopefully good ones!), I don’t think I am quite ready to leave Atlanta and my school yet.  Helping my sister get ready for her wedding and such does open my eyes to how many changes will be coming soon in my family and my own life-makes me feel old!

Speaking of old, my birthday is TUESDAY!  I have basically completely forgotten about it this year with everything going on!  I am not really planning on doing anything and am pretty bummed out that I can’t even talk to my honey on the phone on my birthday (hopefully I will get a Skype date!)

Oh I took some “engagement pics” of my sis and her future hubby the other day, and they are pretty good if I do say so myself!!!  Take a peek:

 

Cute eh?

And just some happy pictures for you 🙂

crafty crafty :)

I am getting better and better on my Cricut–and a family friend gave me a TON of vinyl scraps that they had so that is what I am playing with now and I love it!  All this week I have been a crafting queen!  We have been testing the Cricut, trying to come up with some invitation ideas, placecards, etc.  It’s fun to do it since I have lots of time to practice and play and experiment.

OHHH and newsflash- Shelby got her dress!!!!!  It’s gorgeous and I am so excited for her!  I also ordered my bridesmaid dress which I am super excited about (although I think I am going to be most excited for the cowboy boots that are going to go with it!!)  Going to get dresses and such makes it soooo much more real.  We both feel like we got a lot done this week though 🙂

So it’s been rainy and chilly all week here in Ohio, which doesn’t bother me too much since I am here with my family, BUT I have been daydreaming of a real vacation somewhere warm and beautiful….hopefully this summer I can at least make it down to Florida for some beach time.

I really want to go to these vaca spots!

Back to being crafty 🙂